November 16th, 2009
Change
You told me several times that I must change, but have you ever asked yourself about the word CHANGE? There are two words that you could put on the word "change". One. is change for the BETTER or change for the WORST. Which of these two phrases do you want to choose?
Lately, we have this never ending fights about jealousy and lack of trust. You told me that I am insecure and I always get jealous for nothing. You even highlighted the word TRUST. In the first place, I know it is my fault that I always nag you but for me, there are reasons behind all of these arguments. First, the text message that I saw from your friend, asking you if you want a "twin service". Second, someone saw you in an area that is loaded with girls. Third, the social interview question from your friend which states that "whenever you're bored, you go spotting". Lastly, you're easily irritated to me. Now from these statements, can you still ask me to trust you?
After our argument, you told me that I should change. You yelled at me and even told me words that I couldn't take. You became insensitive again to the point that you didn't listened. What hurts even more is that it is so easy for you to let go of me. All I want is for you to love me and accept me for who I am. Asking me to change for someone that I am not is hard.
I hope time will come that you'll understand why am I being like this. Clifford it is not hard and difficult to show me that I AM THE ONLY ONE in your life.
