California
Sometime in the future, not in the near future but a year or so later I''ll go back to San Diego California for a vacation. Gonna visit my bros and borrow a car and drive my way all over the state. San Francisco, Los Angeles, Orange County and other places I haven't visited. Just driving and stopping once in a while to enjoy the scenery. I'd visit a few friends in the area who have opted to live in America for one reason or another.
In the US I would be away from it all, problems and joys both. I would get time to think, ponder and just find the path I want to take.
Contrary to what a fool friend of mine with occasional narrow views and weak sense of comparision, my life isn't boring, but the opposite. I had my shares of such excitment that I crave for some boredom. Rest. My life now is full of questions, both good and bad with not easy solutions but with many answers. There are many paths for me to take, and each path with its own crossroads and alternate detours. Some of these paths are blocked by fear, others by despair. I have to chose which to overcome, I'm not fearless but I'm not a total coward, when the situation demands it I find myself braver than others. It' like what I read in the book, The Game of Thrones, You need fear to be brave. Maybe sometime in America would give me solutions and set me on the most viable path.
Maybe I need to leave California, and like the song says go to Boston.
Well maybe not Boston but somewhere a lot different from California in scenery.
I could even cross over to Canada, but damn it's cold there they say, but I got friends there I could visit, even though I don't like snow.
But this would be after I have finished my graduate studies and after my first job and even my second job as an educator finally, then I would head for the sunny vales of California singing to the tune of Phantom Planet's California.