December 22nd, 2008
"Scatter-Brained"
I'm not really sure if there is such a word. I take the literal meaning of the word to describe how I am right now. My mind's zoo has announced an official break-out. My thoughts are running wild, especially in the worrying department and of course my fave, procrastination and denial department.
I am in the midst of losing it, but damn am I still good at keeping my act together in front of people. How does the human mind cope to such whirlwinds? Not to mention the storms of the human heart which affects the brain very much.
I admit I have been in the crossroads of my life for more than a year now and till now I have not fixed a single horse shoe for my steed. I cannot until I find a way to gather my composure and capture all my thoughts and locking them up once again where they can entertain and breed as before. The only thing I am so thankful for is the lion cage, for it has not been totally opened yet, full panic has yet to erupt.
Emo-buddy where are you when I need you? Our drinking sessions have kept me sane (very philosophical drinking sessions).
But, I shall make do, I shall strive and do my best and claim the situation for victory before you arrive. You would be proud.